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Summer romance heartbreak

Some may have called it a summer romance, but it felt so much more than that to Lucy, who had her heart broken by the boy who promised he loved her.

Broken heart

The guy that I met earlier in the year was 'totally not my type' I thought, as he asked for my number. He was a bit of a rocker and I hated his beard, but something just clicked. A few weeks later, he'd even shaved his beard off, just because a friend told him that I didn't approve.

Before long we were chatting for hours about anything and everything. Maybe it hadn't been love at first sight, but he grew on me pretty quickly. As I was at university we didn't get to see much of each other, but we spoke on MSN, text and regularly had long phone conversations. This helped me to get to know him a lot better, and a lot faster.

Summer loving

When the term ended, he collected me from university and brought me home for the summer. We spent every day of the following week together and grew almost inseparable, although the 'official' status never came for us: "I'm not ready; I've been hurt and I need to be sure," he said. I had to admit that I felt a bit put out by these reasons, but being so besotted with him, I shrugged them off and said I was willing to wait - I was going to be home for four months after all!

Unfortunately, one of the mistakes I made was to get involved with someone from my large group of friends, which soon caused a conflict of opinion. Friends would tell me that he was treating me badly, neglecting me and leading me on, but I refused to believe what they were saying.

"My heart flew up to my throat, my stomach turned and my eyes welled up. Surely you can't 'not' want to be with somebody you love?"

Another big problem was his ex-girlfriend lingering around like a bad smell and making us feel uncomfortable whenever we went near each other. Each time my friends were there to help me when I started to worry - and worry was all what I did. You know, the typical paranoid thoughts of: "Does he still love his ex?" And, "Why is he bothered more about her feelings than mine?"

All loved up

Fast forward a couple of weeks and everything seemed perfect. He told me he loved me and I believed that finally he'd decided that we should be together properly. I was so happy and nothing could spoil it, but literally two days later his mood turned sour and any contact he made with me was short. I tried to ignore it as his moods usually snapped back quite quickly, but this lasted a whole week. There were barely any texts, no replies on MSN, and no phone calls. What had I done wrong? I decided to just come out and ask him why I'd suddenly become less of an interest in such a short time. In the past it hadn't ever bothered me if he didn't call or reply to texts, so I know I hadn't been one of those clingy suckers, but something just didn't feel right. Unfortunately the words I got back in response were: "I love you too much for us to carry on, I don't want a girlfriend and this 'thing' we have has the qualities of a relationship, which it shouldn't have and I don't want."

My heart flew up to my throat, my stomach turned and my eyes welled up. Surely you can't 'not' want to be with somebody you love? My heart broke there on the spot, my appetite diminished and my sleep was almost non-existent, simply because I didn't understand.

Moving on

He's now decided to move away, which I feel pretty down about, although at least he'll be out of my way so I can try to get over him. It might sound sad, but despite wishing that I had never met the guy, I'm glad I did. He's made me realise that maybe I should wait before I become too attached to someone and that I should protect myself by looking after number one. That way maybe I'll never get hurt in the same way again.

Updated: 05/09/2008


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